A beautiful chaotic Journey

  Everyone started laughing and I immediately looked at D.L. with a sort of surprised, funny and shocked face… Oh-My-God. I couldn't believe what I was seeing and D.L. replied funny with “It is what it is”. To be honest Im not easily shocked and I always just go with the flow without judgment, but I have to admit, this is not something I’ve seen before..10 grams of Cocaine on the table. And everyone was invited to do as many lines as they wanted. This is something I’d only seen in movies before. But this was real and actually lots of people started “having fun” and enjoying themselves at the tables. After a while I was asked to join, but I thanked them as I was not into it and a bit scared to be honest. But once again, no judgment and we continued the night chatting, laughing and dancing. It was super fun and I have to admit, the guests were getting looser, talking way more and sharing some insights than before. I then had a conversation with B.V.( who I met at the party and who wa...

  It was a phone call which I somehow expected but hoped never happened. I was sad and really didn’t know what to do. Hearing that things won't work out is something you really don’t want to hear, especially from the person you have lots of feelings for. I still remember the day we met downstairs at the Train station in Amsterdam South. I was late and K.L was waiting for me downstairs. Moments later when I arrived, the station was quite busy and chaotic. A bit nervous but enthusiastically I was looking for K.L in the crowd. Couldn't see K.L at first and as I was two steps down, I suddenly saw K.L standing downstairs.. WOW…just wow.. and as I stopped walking down the stairs, my heart literally skipped a beat..and at that moment I knew that K.L was  the one for me. I can't really describe the feeling, but I still remember it like it was yesterday.. I mean I never really knew a heart could skip a beat. haha. Coming back to the call, reality hit and the message was clear.. “I c...

Everyone immediately looked at me; some started laughing, and the teacher asked me to be quiet. I was stressed, disappointed and really didn’t know what to do. I didn't recognize any of the questions...How would I ever pass this exam? How do I make sure to stay within the Netherlands? I mean, what would people think of me? I was lost, my world collapsed, and even though I wanted to try and make the best of it, my brain became numb. I started looking outside, people enjoying the summer and here I was… getting ready to go back to Suriname. I again looked outside, started imagining and seeing my two years flashing in front of me. I mean, I was grateful for the opportunities, the ability to just be here and experience two years in a foreign country.. But jeez, I was a failure. I was sad. Devastated and as tears started rolling down my cheeks, the teacher yelled: “STOP! People STOP! I handed out the wrong exams.. These are for other students, with a later exam time. I didn't really ...

It was finally time to leave Suriname and move to the Netherlands. I must say in the beginning I sort of felt like I was going on vacation and not perse aware of the fact that I was leaving my home country to pursue a new life and journey.  On the day of my departure friends and family came to say goodbye and to wish me the best. I remember trying to be in the moment as I'd soon be leaving for a new adventure and didn't really know when I'd see them again. Isn’t it strange that when you greet someone, you are not 100% sure if you will see them again? Ofcourse we assume we will…but is never 100% sure; and therefore whenever I say bye to someone I try to look them in the eyes and say my greetings. After a while, everyone left and it was actually time for me to go to the airport. As you may know, the airport is quite far and it takes around 45minutes by car to reach the airport. As we were driving I was sitting in the back of the car and looking outside of the window and reall...